I wanted this person to know im really2 sorry

Today i really dont know what have gone into me. I cant control my emotion today. I really regret for what i have say today. I said out alots of vugalrities to my friend. And i surprises when i say that word as i was playing a wireless game with him.. I said the vugalrities as he keep hitting my character..and he shock look at me for what i say...and then i say im really sorry..

I slapped my mouth for saying those words a few times... It was beacuse for my type of person, its hard for me to say out these word unless im really2 angry..

But i feel bad ,, i cant believe it.. just because of a game i throw out all my anger and vugalrities to him...

Even though i know im not mean it.. But it makes me feel bad to say it to him just because of a game stuff...

Haiz.. i think now i should learn to aware of what im saying..

Its hard to say vugalrities when your tougue are not train to do so..

But i really2 dont feel good for what im saying.... evn though i at a angry situation..

Now i have to learn how to manage my anger... i cant just let this habit to continued....

however i wanted this person to know i m really2 sori.. even though i know he not going to view my blog.. i still wish he will forgive me...


IM REALLY2 SORRY FOR MY 'WORDS" TO YOU

=(

Do u found a key??.... Its might be mine...

A LOST KEY!!!!!!



I cant find the key of my heart, that closed tight.....



I wonder where was the keys ends?...



Its is still with me... which i cant find it??....



Or its out there wandering around to heals itself...


Where ever the keys is... its have make me hunger for its love....


Im tired of people keep saying im stead with someone which im not OR like someone which im not ( but its true sometimes)....


I believe the key of my hearts will return when i found someone that i love....


But i cant lie myself, inside of me wanted someone to make sure im secure,happy,love and being take care of...

But i cant just force my heart to love someone just because i need to fulfill inside of me needs...


I believe when sun without cloud... its will be weird... same goes to Heart and Self needs

when theres Sun and cloud .. its will shade the glaring light of the sun...

when there Heart and Self needs.. i guess i got nothing to lose...

However its is.. i guess this not the first time im lost the key....

I hope to find the key.... I wont force myself to find it... Because Its wont be a true love....

Btw do people actully really know what true love really means??....

Theres will be plenty of answers.. but for my....


A love thats come in it owns way, and attached the both couple hearts together... No matter how long, how far, or how deep the couple was tested.. they will meet/stayed nomatter what....
Even death wont seperate them apart....


I will continued walk at the path of hearts.... till i found the end of its...... Even though its hard to controll this feeling... but i believe i will overcome it....

Hie ....

Today i did the most important thing that i surpposed to end it....
Even though i end it with a sad or a gulity feeling.. atleast now im feeling better...
Its hard to say out at first.. but i go on slowly.. I believe my heart was told to say out my feeling ... im not sure whats oging to come next in my life.. but i m looking forward to face its with full heart, and never stop praying to wish it end nicely....

I hope now i could smile and be happy....
Its hard to say all this thing when especially when u r in the middle of it....
But i did it... finally.....



I hope my life would be a better me...

Bye2
gtg to sleep early for tmw early wake up...
=)

Z.z.z..z