Now Days, I alwaes dont think straight, i get angry easily. I dont feel right lately what is the nature trying to telling me.. My prob havent solved yet.... The problem matters keep playing on my head... Even though i feel abit peace at home but i know i cant resist it.I wonder if i was tough enough to face alll this....

I wonder What will happen when school reopen....
Would i be happy,Sad,Angry,moody or others emotions...
I wish i could be the old me....


If in your right hand there is GOld and your Left hand there is Diamond
Which will you chosed?

As for me i have to think the consequences before taking any of them.....
I must think which is the more benefit


No matter what challenges is waiting, i wont give up to fight it!

Hey Today i accompany Naim to Katong Road... He's taking his no 1 uniform...

And since my sister's workplace is just at the 2nd Storey of the building... We decided to dropped by... After about 45 mins we go off.. to our unsure destination which is Parkway Parade.... We just wandering in the mall doing absolutely nothing... After that we decided to take a nice break at the East Coast Beach .... We Sit at the rock... And day dreamt.. With a strong Wind that blowing our hair.. As i SIngs something to relax... He susguested we should bring extra clothes for swim.. hahaha then we decided to continued to walk at the park ... He asked me to try Roller Blading... hahah Which i dont mastered... He Said he willing to teached me.... but then i still stubborn keep saying i dont want..... =). So SInce that we go eat at MacDonald.... .After eating.. We headed homes straight since he very concerning about my mum that left alone at home... SO we took bus home... When we reached home he said he wanted to borrow using my comp... so i said go ahead then... AFter getting really bored... I wanted to sing... I sing out loud... And after that he joined to fun too... after awhile my dad come back from worked.. Then he wanted to take his leave... so that its.... my Day for today... nothing much.... But Whenever i going out with him theres will be fun.... I hope tomorrow would be a better day for me and my mum... Staying home with her kind of bored... I WANTED A VACATION!!!! hehehe

SO that its..

bye2

*nana*

Hey Good Morning..
Hawww. . ..
Im sleepy...

Today we have a family Day out... Im not active.. I being so no energy.. Its was because i havent eat anything... We go to Sim Lim Square... My sis wanted to buy a camera... so we all just followed..

I done nothing much today... i updating my blog .... Find a disc to copy to my video.. which drives me nuts... i tried my very best... but still cannot.. Haiz.. Btw Im tired these days with the stuff i have to do... Doing my sister a favour by helping her wrapped a box, then must help my dad instored song to his brand new MP4.. And do the video thingy... Event though it doesnt use and Perspirering .. but i use a mental physical which more tiring.. i never give up and keep trying... Holiday kind of bored... Sitting at home and doing chores was so boring...But sometime i do something else..Actually i got alot of stuff that i have to do... But i prefer not to do them so.. hehehe.... Btw I wonder what will my friend look when school reopened will they changed in behaviour?... attitude???.... or more... But i do hope they remain the same.. So of them changes when school closed.. because maybe got alot of problem that they are facing... As human always changes.... I hope they having a great time.... i hope that with new school term .. there will be a good fine day..

I wish to all the best

*nana*

I m on holiday now..
Today i looked back the pictures in my secondary schools life and primary pictures. When i look those pictures my heart sanked.. Actually after i graudated from Primary I never ever turn back and visit the school.. Deep in my heart i really wanted to come back.. but its like something stopping me to do so... I miss all my friends, Its still freshed in my mind of my friends name. i miss them.

Same goes for Secondary school friends, I remember when im still in Dikir Barat Team. We faced alots of challenges, the most i miss in secondary school life is my Band.My Band was a COP band.. But i remembered we all strived hard to improved. However we faced alots critic comments. Unfortunately, i was all alone a band member in my class there afew but they quit. I remember my first instrument was introduced to me.. I now learned that music cant be sprated from my blood. Now I always dreamt about my band and my primary friends. I miss all of them.. I hope i could turn back all the time. I would like to thanks all teachers that have teached me.. I realised when i grow older I have to learned to let things go.. But this things will be kept closed to my heart. I never forget all of its.

My great Pal Mustapha, primary friend, he admire me.. I wonder where was him.. I do remembered i told him "i hope you will find someone better than me". at that time i cried badly as i told him this.. Where in the world he could be..We meet back during primary 6 reunited, we still good friends we even say maybe we would meet each other for study in the library, after that moment till now i never saw him again.. Its hard to lost a good pal like him.. but then know he have a good life now..


In Secondary, I almost like a quiet girl, i rarely talked. I talked alots to people that i know closed only, im changed since sec three when i cant convince my parent to have turst on me. And its really hurt me. I used to be a obidient girl but after my dad always misjudged me. i change to be a wild girl i became rude and ungrateful child. i know what im done is so wrong, But i do this to get thier attention. I have a great bestfriends and a girl backstab me, from that moment i became even worst. I confornt with her and have a slow talk i know i scold her badly. From that moment i dont believe in "BESTFRIENDS" . But now we a good friend, but i never forget what she have doned to me till now. But in secondary 4 i was all alone.. i got no one.... i was a loner..


Its was because the past teached me alots... Sorry for those who know me as a "innocent girl" but after all i got a darkest history which no ones can feel accept me. I was like a piece of old newspaper that flys in the street being roll over car wet in the rain and dry in the sun. and getting torn here and there slowly i will vanished after time past..



Life of me is dark.. MY heart is red
When i hear the growling dog bark.... im afraid
Holding tights to myself.... nodded down to my body
I cried in the night... when no body hearing..

I hurt myself day and night
when no ones found the scar which in my heart
Stand in smile to all friends
Actually i was throwing its fake to cheer them great
I do cruel things in the actions
Actually i was gulity in person

Im shouting alone when no one hearing
Say out my angers in the air to relief my feelings
Saying this every day till nights
"WIll i be alive tommorrow or i will die?"
"i cant faced your challenges world"
"as im not strong to faced this all"
"however i know i forcing it"
"which im doing is killing me"
" i standing proud with confidence"
"cause i know every challenges"
"makes me even better person"

*Nana*