2010 is a year of nightmare that i kept saw in my imaginations..=(

I have almost 1 day left (31th December 2009) tomorrow to prepare myself to say goodbye to 2009. Its sad for me to left this year, i have great up and downs for this year.

2009 is the year where i unites almost with all my friends, i always love them.., i might not describe how i love them in words,but its all in my heart, i enjoy spending my moments with them, if i conquer the time, i wanna spent with everyone like never ends..., Not to forget my 2009 ITE classmates PE0801P, even though i have a issues with my teacher, i always love him for being patience all the while with me, i still remember on 30th/--/09 i have a big quarrel with him, that's my first time being rude to a teacher.. however im proud to have MR Andrew Lim my former 2008 Class Advisor to support me, he been trying hard to push me to the end for this year, and he make me promise him to succeed till the end of the sch year, and i did!.

Not to forget 25Th October 2009, Where big arguments happened this moment never ever erase from my life, i always remember this moment caused this where we told each other to start everything back a new, and only God Knows whats happend between us all, but now deep inside my heart, i will never forget evey single of my friends scarification that they have done.. and i truly love them!...

Not to forget the Clan.. Arinah, Fifa, Mazlina, Sufian, Aidil and newly known on Arinah's birthday,Aqilah and Hana... well this clan really a outgoing clan.. i have great time with them all.. and i feel so happy while spending my time laughing with them.. and one hobby i guess in the clan wont missed out is a picture of the day whenever there outing.. hehe well hope this clan will last long and if possible forever...


Yana,Nina,Wanie,Eerah,Alif,Rufi,Faizal and others, i always love them all!, my love never been divided at all, i always wish i cld spent my whole year with everyone.. I really appreciate with the presence of them all.. thanks so much for being there and support me..

I don't know how cld i face 2010 that gonna arrive soon, whenever i saw a advertisement regarding celebration 2010, my hearts felt so scared, and in my eyes 2010 is like a nightmare, and im scared and not even excited to looking forward..Its was because 2010 is a year of separations to me, where most of my friends gonna head their owns path now.. For ITE friends, we are graduated and most of us heading somewhere else.. i feel so scared, coz i don't know who gonna by my side next year?.. ;'(, if this year i have Ian, Safri, Naufal and Shafiq as my classmates, and i have friends like Yana, Alif, Rufi and my former classmates, i don't know who gonna stay for 2010..., its like a stranger to me.. i don't know can i find a loyal,funny,crazy,irritating friend like Ian for a classmate and a partner for projects?, Safri, Naufal, and Shafiq as a friend to accompany and help out me in stuff??, I don't know.. seriously im scared.. im crying right now,cause im scared losing them... cause i never gonna find a person like them..i might take advantage of them, but deep inside i appreciate them and i love them for being there...

2010 where every persons of friends gonna go separates ways, i don't want to loose them all!, i really wanted them to be with me right here besides me.. but im afraid ,that's not things gonna be next year.. Yana might pursue to another course in another campus, Nina gonna be busy same goes to Herwani, Faizal,Eerah and the rest, Alif and Rufi i not sure. Ian gonna head for National Service (NS) Police in 4th May 2010, Aidil gonna head somewhere to continues his sad life, he always shows his happiness arnd to cheers others, but i can feel, he been suffering inside... and no ones knows.. Maz, she gonna continues her studies, Arinah, she gonna continues her studies too..Fifa gonna achiever her goals as well and my newly known friends Aqilah and Hana also have things to achieve... everyone have their own things to achieved..

However,where ever my friends was, i always support them in their Good greats goals.. and they will always be my friends no matter what, even though we're gone separates ways, i will keep their memories with me.. and bring them where ever i go.. no matter they are casual, new, old or far, even closes friends their will always be there in my heart.. I gonna missed them badly!.. ;'(, I =f they faces doubt or problem ups or downs in 2010 i really hopes they will shares it with me..and i pretty happy to be their listening ears..=(, and will inform me if they changes their numbers..

I don't know, if i continued in Higher Nitec can i find a best classmate like used to be?.., Im just too scared.. im scared the world of year 2010 would be a mean year to me.. and i scared, that nobody by side anymore.. ;'(, i don't know.. im scared..., im feel that 2010 separating me from my friends all of them!.. hm i missed them all.. pls don't separates us all.. i don't know what will i be without them... even though my family always there, i still need someone outsiders to guide me.. haix.. i dont' know for now.. i just gonna say i really wish things gonna stay as what the use to in 2009..and my friends will always stay and be there for me and us all.. i really wish that.. And most important is, i hope all of us will not changed and stay how we use to know each other.. the old them that i recognized them now.. but if they changed i gonna missed old them..

Life is changing, time is ticking, day is switching, but i hope my memories, how i use to know them, love , care, and our bonding never changes at all!... =(

I really hope 2010 is a year of bonding and gathering and not a year of separations....year or happiness, joy and fun not a year of crying sad and horrifying year.. hm =(

*LOVE U ALL..*
NaNa FaRhAnAh a.K.a NaNa PeNdEk

Chaos of Ian birthday planing.. hehe =)

Now was 12.51am.. 16 December 2009!, guess what its Ian birthday.. actually i really hope that today wld be a memorable birthday for him as he going NS at 4th May 2010.. and we might unable to celebrate his birthday again, who knows we all gonna separate ways..


14 December 2009
My Actual plan is if we could celebrate his birthday at his place. Arinah give the idea of that and others agreed as well, so we go on with the plan, but without Ian knowing. so i the one that gonna talk to his mum since they say i closed to his mum, I got nervous wanna call his home cause i kind a worried if he the one that answer the phone.. however i tried and he did answered, i lied that i say i tried to contact him through hp but then network failed.. heheh =P , then while i on the phone with him, Arinah call.. so we conference together.. while in the conference.. Ian did say that he not sure whether he could make it for the outing, cause maybe his family will bring him out.. so i like acting and say"Hand the phone to your mum let me talk to her and say that i booked u for tomorrow outing." then he did pass it,then due to confused so many voices in the conference cause Fifa was in the conference as well.. Ian said " Why u didn't speak with her when she say hello?". Then i decided and i say "Then u used your hp and conference while i called your house phone" he agreed and hang up, and i rushy dialed his house number.. and yeah! his mum picked up.. i asked his mum whether they are bringing Ian out?, then i say about my plan if could we wanna celebrate Ian birthday at his place and that only happen if we have the permission of Aunt and Uncle, his mum need to discuss its over Ian Dad.. so i give his mum time to talk about it and get back to me by tomorrow around 1pm.. after i hang up, i called Arinah and joined the conversation again.. then Arinah talk to me privately before joining me with rest for conference.. then i told her everything about the plan and then she join me back in the conversation as per normal..and discussed and discussed... hehe =)

15 December 2009
I wake up at 11 or 12pm in the afternn something.. then i patiently wait till 1pm for his mum reply, and i really hope if the answer was positive, cause i hope it can,cause i can imagined the fun moment already at his place, and so that he could celebrate together with his friend and family...At 1pm i was anxiously, then i tried to called his house using my hp but then no one picked up after several's tone..then i called use my house phone which is private so if Ian picked i could just hang up without he knowing it.. but then still no one answered.. then i think maybe they going out, or maybe she go pray for Zohor.. Then it around 1.30pm and i go washed out and go out to Tampines Post Office to pay my dad bill, then i decided to called Ian when i at the post office, and he answered, so i asked " What are u doing?" the he said " i just woke up".. then i chat with him for awhile and i tried to asked "then u r alone?" He replied" Nope, my mum just come back from taking her medicine".. so that why no one answer my called.. i talk to him again with a topic .. then i suddenly say to him "By the way, what are the ingredients that your mum used to make the Marble Cake?" caused i used to eat his mum cake and i really love it.. then he say " u go called my house and asked her then".. so i hang up and called his house.. but then no one pick up after so long.. then Ian called and say wait for some minute her mum was on the phone.. then after awhile his mum called and say about the plan result.. unfortunately she can't.. caused she didn't told his dad about it due to certain family reasons.., his mum do say "don't get mad alright s Farhanah ", haha then i say " its ok", i wont forced,its ok if she can't", so i contd my conversation with his mum asked about the ingredient of the marble cake.. and after awhile.. we hang up.. then i called Ian back through his Hp..then i called Arinah and told her about the news, then we had no choice to continued the plan as the original way outing by Ian plan etc..

16 December 2009
Later that night around 8,30pm i called Arinah as she wanted me and Ian to called her and we plan at first they say we hangout at a place that i wasn't sure..then Aidil want us to join conversation and then it all like so messed up.. then blah3 cut things short.. Ian , Arinah and me get back on the conference and cracked up our head for outing places .. and then.. after Ian hangs up i called Arinah.. and tried to plan about the cake surprised.. cause Ian doesn't know about it.. then we got so messed up, at last i just told Arinah do what she things rites,... and here goes...

I really hope that the outing is a memorable birthday for Ian.. cause i really hope he would remember this birthday as the memorable birthday he ever had.. but i don't know.. i hope later we will have great day and have fun!.. and ya Mazlina (Ian ex) doesn't joined us this time round, hm due to her own valid reasons i guess .. hm however i hope Ian will have a great birthday outing, i really hope, u must be wondering why i like wanted this outing goes perfectly.. hm cause i don't know when,where and etc i can spend time with him and my friends again.. i gonna miss them. especially Ian cause he gonna be in NS.. or in Police next year. after getting our ITE results if either of us didn't make it or make it, or separate ways .. who knows he might not be the old guy i used to know., and same goes to my friends, i really hope we would have a great long friendship that never ends... not only with Arinah, Mazlina, Aidil, Sufian and Fifa and same goes the rest.. Yana,Nina,Wanie,Eerah,Alif,Rufi, and etc,, and others,,

i love u all and i wish my friendship would last long with all of u, cause my love as a friend to u all is unlimited,... haix.. i really hope i could make a memorable birthday for everyone.. but im sorry if i couldn't/ didn't make your birthday a great or memorable one, .hmm.. anyways to Ian i hope u will have a great day with us.. even though i know u wouldn't read my blog, but i hope u will not forget me as your friend alright's, cause i know i m not the kind of people you usually hang out with, but i do hope you wont changed, and same goes to Aidil and all.. i really hope.. and lastly "Mudahan2 16 December 2009, ini akan menjadi hari lahir Ian yg terindah.. and mungkin jadikan lah hari lahir nyer yg terindah yg tak akan Ian lupekan dalam hidupnye.. Insyallah Amin.. "


Gonna really hope things will go fine... =)

Nana 1.41am... =)