I still can't accept the facts abt us.., i thought i was strong enough to get rid of u, but its opposite, u are too strong for me to get rid of..
Its been 2years past.. I can't believe it, from a instant get to know, we actually been this far.. We might be closed.. however there still boundaries between us.. , the boundaries that can''t be explained.. however i believed u remember everything that happened between us.. it might be just a memories for u.. but its more than just a memories for me..
I tried everything to get rid of u.. despite i tried many times to keep myself away n forgetting abt us.. but i guess God still wanted us to be together..
I want u out from my life. but at the same time, i don't want u to leave.. i don't know what i want.. im so confused!
On 28 July 2010..
AT bugis.. we met.. i requests we met on that day,since im not going for Teakwondo Practices... I meet him after walking around with my Classmate Liyana..Since she have to leave at 6pm, I decided to text him, if he wld want to meet me.. He agreed.. Around 6pm Liyana have to leave n i meet him..So we head to City Hall, so we walked from Bugis to City Hall.. While we walked he asked "Why u wanted to meet me so sudden?" , i said.." I thought u said in your messages u wanted to spent more time with me." then he silent.. coza in my mind was only him..
WE when to Esplanade, we sat and talked.. after awhile he hungry.. so we decided to go dinner.. , we have our dinner at KFC @ Marina Square.. AFter dinner we walked around Marina Square Mall and we when some place quiet that kinda a little peace.. We have so much laugh, and jokes together.. while laughing actually deep inside me was crying.. Its just that we have great time.. we like so closed.. but everything stops just bcoz of ours boundaries.., while i was with him.. on his lap, while he hugging me.. I look to the stars and said to him.. and what i was saying is so random.. not even in my thought.. i said..(in MAlay) " Kalau i takder, u cari kawan lain kay?." He said " U tak nak umpe i lagik?" n i repeat the same questions again.. he silent.. i said.." Kalau i takder u cari kawan lain.. selain i.." then he hug me tight.. as if he don't want to let me go,.. maybe i hurt him with my words.. but i feel that night its so beautiful, coz its the same feeling when we first met each other.. However that gonna be unforgettable night for me..
As we take our move to train at City Hall, i shake hand with him.. but while i shake his hand he was like wanted me to kiss his hand.., but i didnt..
As we gone separate ways to different escalators he look at me and smiled..
That end to our meet that time..
I cant stop thinking.. why does this boundaries have to be between us?.., Its hard to explained.. If said.. people wont undertsnd, and they will definitely blamed me.. if only they know how i felt and how hard i tried not to be blamed at..
There no explanations can be done.. The pictures of fun moments we had gonna always hunt me.. But i guess God fated everything for us.. land i just hope there gonna be a reasons why all this happened between u and me..
Our friendship just like the skyline.. when it was under construction till it fully done now.. we are here together..
Hmm, hope there gonna be a good reasons why things happened this way...
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