Shld stop complaining..

Haiz is not i wanted to complaints how sucks my life is.. Sometime i wonder did i take things for granted?.. I just dont know how to bring the old me back, the way i dont give a damn abt anythg,whats happening and etc..the happy go lucky i used to be, dont give a fuck on anythg..now i dont know why that i care too much..haiz im just tired of everythg..how i wish i was like last time.. Tired if whinding abt my life... Fuhk!..seriously im tired of me being this way... Arrghh!..

Study time at usual place!: EHub!, Mac Cafe

Well now i at the bus stop otw to Pasir Ris Ehub! @mac cafe to study, idk why but i like to study there.. Coz i cld feel concerntration is there.. I gonna study for my test tmw.. There no way i wanna let myself fail without tryin.. So may today i will have the peace in my mind and heart..so i cld fill in my mind with knowledge and so do my heart feel relax and get things easy.. I lied to my mum.., i said i gone study with my friend, but then actually i when there alone.hahaha.. Well i cant rely on ppl to be there for me all the while.., i have to learned independent.. Afterall alone is the way to get myself everywhere in life, so doesnt matter is ppl see me loner, or what so ever.. As long i did things on my own.. So may today i cld tuck in all the knowledge in my brain . So even if i failed the least i do is i try an believe!.. 😊

May u brighten up my day.. ☀

Kay now im in class, i supposed to be study but i shoved my earpiece on and play with my phone.. I just dont feel like doing anything.. I just wanna go sch but then im doing nothing.. And my two fren at the back yana and kah busy whatsapping and beep here and there..*while updating my blog my teacher kpo and see what im doing and said i was busy smsing..*😝haix wonder what my day will be today.. may God showed me his way.. 😊

After a sunny day comes down the rains.. ☀☔

Today i spent my day at kah place, together with yana and syed.. We laugh out loud all day.. But who knows after a bright and sunny day, rain and storm strike in a sudden.. There something happen between kah and... When she reading her msg as her tears dripping down to her tears she shout and said "saket sia hati!" and range her anger all out and cry like there no others.., i cant say anything just speechless.. But inside me i wonder how cld i help her.., i always wanted to help all my friends but i just dont know how.., im just not a good listener and a gd helping hand.., however i hope Allah SWT will guide all my friends when i cant be there for them,or im just not gd enough to be a companion.. Afterall i just wanna be there for ppl really closed to me.. However God pls guide me and my loved ones.. Cause all the good and bad things happened, come from you .. Kay that roughly how my day today..May tomorrow i have a brighter day.. 😊

please bring the old me that i used to be.. i really lost my way and i only prayin hard to ALLAH SWT..

its kinda a while i didn't update my blog. There's many things happen.. the things that i cant stop from happened.. I know everything happen its on God Wills there nothing cld do but just accept it..i felt horrible days after days... i cant find the reasons why i kept on living this way for 11 months.. i just missed those days when i have my smile all over and everywhere i go.. but then everything changed.. nothing is the same as before.. how i wish i cld bring those smiles and laughter at my face.. but my heart cant denied.. Even after moving forward of my feeling towards "HER", i cld still feel the pain in me.. i just cldnt get it why it doesnt go away..

I know my heart are still crying that i cant have the things or PERSON.. i wanted.. but i have to moved on so the the person are happy with their life.. As long the person are happy and being take care of..i wld pray the best.. even i live in devastated conditions.. i only feel i got myself to turn to, and nobody else other than myself.. i just miss my old day really really really really much!!!..

Dear God,

I know imperfect.. and i know everything that happened was come from You.. and i should accept it no matter what even though its hurt.. i just want you to help me in my daily life.. pls guide me.. coz i seem to be so lost.. pls make me smile and laugh again.. im tired of living like a soul that dont really have a emotions.. and hope one day u find me a real,loyal,patience,understanding, person that will love me as much!.. and hope in return u will make me love the person as much in my life.. and the person wld throw away those sadness in my heart.. and we will live together in thick and thin together.. I may not have a perfect looks or interesting life.. but i just hope i will find the person that look deep thru in my heart, and not my outlooks.. after u sent many guys to accompany me,Afik,Sya,Solihin, and others.. now pls this time showed me one person that worth my whole life.. i cant continued living like this... Pls show me your guidance.. Im a human on my knees just begging and praying much to you to makes things works and well again.. Amin..

Hanya padaMu aku meminta pertolongan dan keredha hati..
Kau la Maha Pengasih,Maha Penyayang and Maha Pengetahui Segalanya..
Dan kau juga la yg telah menyaksikan segalanya..

Hope things wld changed..