please bring the old me that i used to be.. i really lost my way and i only prayin hard to ALLAH SWT..

its kinda a while i didn't update my blog. There's many things happen.. the things that i cant stop from happened.. I know everything happen its on God Wills there nothing cld do but just accept it..i felt horrible days after days... i cant find the reasons why i kept on living this way for 11 months.. i just missed those days when i have my smile all over and everywhere i go.. but then everything changed.. nothing is the same as before.. how i wish i cld bring those smiles and laughter at my face.. but my heart cant denied.. Even after moving forward of my feeling towards "HER", i cld still feel the pain in me.. i just cldnt get it why it doesnt go away..

I know my heart are still crying that i cant have the things or PERSON.. i wanted.. but i have to moved on so the the person are happy with their life.. As long the person are happy and being take care of..i wld pray the best.. even i live in devastated conditions.. i only feel i got myself to turn to, and nobody else other than myself.. i just miss my old day really really really really much!!!..

Dear God,

I know imperfect.. and i know everything that happened was come from You.. and i should accept it no matter what even though its hurt.. i just want you to help me in my daily life.. pls guide me.. coz i seem to be so lost.. pls make me smile and laugh again.. im tired of living like a soul that dont really have a emotions.. and hope one day u find me a real,loyal,patience,understanding, person that will love me as much!.. and hope in return u will make me love the person as much in my life.. and the person wld throw away those sadness in my heart.. and we will live together in thick and thin together.. I may not have a perfect looks or interesting life.. but i just hope i will find the person that look deep thru in my heart, and not my outlooks.. after u sent many guys to accompany me,Afik,Sya,Solihin, and others.. now pls this time showed me one person that worth my whole life.. i cant continued living like this... Pls show me your guidance.. Im a human on my knees just begging and praying much to you to makes things works and well again.. Amin..

Hanya padaMu aku meminta pertolongan dan keredha hati..
Kau la Maha Pengasih,Maha Penyayang and Maha Pengetahui Segalanya..
Dan kau juga la yg telah menyaksikan segalanya..

Hope things wld changed..