Y i shld be here?,, when i can be "there"?

Ello..

I m gald F Alonso won!!... ..


I wonder y suddenly, i feel i wasnt needed in my family..I just dunnoe y.. Some how its remind me of someone closed to my heart.....I dunnoe y.. but i can feel.. i wanst needed for my family.. shld i go?... but i dunnoe y.. i feel tat i not supposed to be here... but i got no where to go.. My life seem.. so small.. I got some friends that kept me accompany.. and my family is getting far to me.. they nvr wanted to know me.. i feel like wat im opinion.. is against them and they make me feel like im a ungrateful child.. so wat the use of me staying here. if my opinion is alwaes a rude to them.. I feel i got no right to speak... I feel that wat im done is alweas wrong in thier eyes... I wasnt trust by them.. I feel that i kind of outsider sometime.. I nid trust!... i want trust!!.. but t it wasnt given me chance.. Brother!.. its hard for me.. to be in your place... If only i cld see u.. i wanted to tell u.. how much i miss u.. for 17 years!!!.. i yearned for u loved..
no one wld replaced u in my heart..... i will wait till we unite arites..So if u saw the scars in my hand its means i harming myself .. to be wif u...

I nvr forget ya..