ello..
Im sorry for wat im have done.. now im lost .. i know maybe at this stage ppl might pissed off with me.. haix... if u also pissed out with me.. i begged please dont leave me.. i really lost in my oneself.. ppl migt c im norm.. but if u read certain in my blog.. u will know y..., its not i wantd to be this way.. but it hard.. I wanted to shared with ppl.. but i dont want later they sick and tired of hearing the prob im facing.. I dont mean to hurt anyone..
What i feel is i lost my smile and my happiness my old me.. ppl mgt c im norm.. but only i know tat im not me that used to be.. i wanted to get out frm here.. from the darkest nightmare im here... Wat im want is.. pls bring the brightnest of happiness in me.. pls.. i beg.. i sad over lost a fren that used to shared his smile or happiness abt his life.. and now i cldnt afford anymore.. ppl keep jealous wif me abt thing abt i being close to my fren whch i close to is their love ones.. I cant afford to faced all this anymore!!!..and the most i cant bear its keep repeating!!!.. feeling like running.. this the reason y i cant be old me arites.. bcozz my happineess wif my fren have been given to them ... It was so not unfair to me... i lost them to scarifice my fren happiness.. I cant hardly smile anymore.. my brain cant stop thinking of this and my changes!!!!.. ARRRHHHH!!! MAKE THIS ALL STOP!!!!!!!! >> ITS HURTING MY BRAIN!!!!!
PPL if u dun hear my scream,.. its bcoz im screamming in me.. in mE!!!!!!...
I need to u to understand that i was with ur love ones is bcoz i just wnated to help them with their problems and i wanted to c thier happiness wif u and for our frenship that its.. when my fren r happy.. means Thats make me happy by sharing abit of it.. But all of u are selfish!!!!!!!.. u dun let even wanted to shred abit of ur happiness wif me.... I KNOW I CAN CHOOSE TO LET THIS THINGS AWAY OFF MY MIND>> BUT WHY I CHOOSE TO THINKS OF IT>> BECOZ IF I FORGET ABT THIS MEANS I can forget abt my happiness and my life.. that the reason y im being this ways.. i cant leave this way when i surpposed to make ppl happy but its seem im the cause of their rotten relationship.. ITs happen in a row non-stop.. maybe the first time i cld stop thinking.. but as it contd i cant!!!!!... i feel like leaving all of it with their love ones... but most ppl are stopping me from doing it.. i cant bear looking at them and beg for me not to go.. but my heart was like being caned!!..
Lastly Im sorry friend.. this y im being this way.. its going to hunt me till the end if it nvr stop.. I dun mean this not to be shared.. but when i wanted to say i just forget when the words at the tips of my mouth that going to speak just gone.. I m sowwie..
Nana,..
I really hope u understand i dun want to be this way..
tc,,
NANA
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