Forgeting u it not i intend to do..

ello...

i guess after today or tmw.. we might not seeing each other again, as i heard form many students that tmw will be a graduation day..

I saw at escalator goin to swimming pool area.. and i tired to called and make conversation to u.. but i guess, i wasnt able to catched u.. i admit.. i kept this feeling abt u... I love u..,

i tried a few times.. but today was abt the day.. but suddenly its like i got the feeling telling me not to turned back to sch.. as after that i go out ...


but as i walked with my friends my heart cant bear the pain of tears cryin out.. and now i cried badly...

THE MEMORIES

* Even though there wasnt much we spent time together,..
But i still rember..

* The first met...

* When i was sitting down with my friend WC.. while waiting for u and ur friends.. after awhile u came and i was eating.. and i left my bag on the table u put ur belonging on my bag.. as i wanted to take my stuff.. u looked me in the eyes...

* and same goes during a teambuilding when it over i saw u... and there once more u satrae d me in the eyes..

* And during in the pool... we joke arnd by multiplaying games in psp.. and we intend to have another match again. but it wasnt..

* U came when i was playing pool with my friends and i was alone standing.. u and i was like tryin to make a conversation, i freshed in my mind u asked me " how many u have won today?"(roughly) and i take a themes of billabong in ur hp to my W910i..

* When i and friends come to Swimming pool.. go swim and u approuched me.. and asked for something.. and i saw u swimming welled..

* There time in pool u talking to me "what m i doing?" while u pass thru after booking tables for ur frens..

* ANd u hurt me most when i saw u and WC.. the first thing u say out to me is.. "where is your boyfriend?" , if u wasnt realize my heart cant accpet any other guy rather than only u... it hurt me when u say that way... i admit u saw me mixed with many guys.. but they wasnt as special as i know u..

* and more sitting wih u ,chatting with u, laughing with u.. and more..

* and I saw u when i peeking looking u in the swimming pool..

and today the last if we werent meeting again!...

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I just wanted u to know that if after today i wont be mittingu again..

i will clipped all the memories we had, to the bottemless in my heart..
bcoz u the FIRST guy i ever loved ..and it reaally hard for me to forget u...

I put all the faith in God.. , i believed in Him ... I believe he knows what the best for me as welled for u... I have to fight all the emotions.. but i admit i cant!!.

im not gibing up.. but i cant just stay loveing u and yearned for u while there no end to it!... i cant keep rejecting guys that wanted to eneter to my life and making me happy.. because my happiness in ur hands...

i guess if u go.. i have to let this memories or lloved i carried the burden these days off...

i just hope the memories will died with u in my heart!.. i admit u r the guy for me.. there wasnt more nor nothing less in u that wat i searching for in a guy ...but i guess u wont be mine.. afterall..

I wish all lovers happy valentines day...

I lost mines..which it wont be back....
which will died with my bottomless cryness heart...

as for me i will celebrates Valentines alone means crying in my heart alone...

I wanted u to know forgeting u is not i wanted to do, but i cant contd my life if the memories of u in my minds.. and i cant accpet other guy.., i cant stand when looking deep to the memories path we had before..

and i just ur name will fade slowly as it will peeled off my skin of heart piece by piece and it hurts when ur images in my mind fading..

IT pain.. but i left with no choice.. i i have the choiced i wanted to keep all of it.. but i cant....


SYAFIQ.....


Nana..